And I intend to be gone for longer, but I figured I should probably say something as some people have seemed to ask about me.
Overall, things are going kind of meh for me. Thinking more positively, I've been happier (somewhat?). There are days that go by and I feel great. Then there will be some number of days in a row when I'm depressed the entire day. I think the longest that has gone on has been 5 days, but that was only one time.
I've been kept very busy here. I don't even really want to list all the crap I have to do. I've done a little personal art, but really not all that much. I've practically been living in the art annex and the library for the past few days trying to keep up with everything. Next week I will be starting my job.
Some things I think I need to discuss... Most of you know the emotional roller coaster I've been on for the past year or so... I know I'm not the only person with problems, so please don't take this that way... I just haven't been motivated to move forward with many of my personal projects (Cirque Sinistre being one of them). It makes me sad to say this, but I am very much considering closing the group. It's not just that I've been busy, but it's been my internal issues getting in the way as well. I'm sorry if that upsets anyone. It upsets me a little bit too. This isn't set in stone yet, but it has been on my mind.
I also apologize to the contest winners. I know I have only gotten one contest prize done... and I feel awful about that... I honestly don't have any sort of motivation to draw the prizes... None at all. Therefore, I don't think I can go through with drawing the rest of them. HOWEVER, I am willing to buy you some points if you would take that in place of the art. I do apologize... And I think this is really all I can do to compensate at the moment.
If I do close Cirque Sinistre, I plan on giving back any of the points I have left to the people who donated them to me.
I am also not doing roleplays anymore... I've done a few small silly rp's with Haley, but aside from that I don't have enough energy to do any in-depth roleplaying. I'm sorry if this upsets anyone... I just cannot do it. I'm not motivated. It's not fun to play with someone who has no motivation to do something.
I am also considering quitting DA. I talked about this a while back and am considering it more so now than before. I never really realized how much stress I felt being a part of this website... I have no idea why this site stresses me out so much, but ever since I've been offline... I've been doing better. I haven't been nearly as self-conscious as I have been for the past few months. This is another reason why I've avoided logging onto DA. I wanted to see if my mood would change if I was offline for an extended period of time... And it did. Quite the improvement.
Sorry to those of you who were worried about me for nothing. I'm as alright as I'll ever be for the time being. I'm just taking time away from being online.
Nothing is finalized yet. I still consider myself on a bit of a hiatus.
Logging off for the time being. Talk to you later.